It was the best of times, it was the best of times.

I have been dreaming of this blog for what seems like ages.  The hardest part has been deciding how to actually START - the beginning seems overwhelming, so maybe I'll start with today.

I'm a person who happens to be crazy, madly, wildly in love with two people...who are married...to each other. 

They are gone on a weekend trip with friends, and I am having the most miserable time.  I'm hoping writing will help my heart stop hurting so much.  All I can think about is being with them.  All the time.  I mean literally...probably as often as men think about sex (that's like once every ten seconds, right?)!  Did I mention that I'm a responsible adult?  Yup - 41 years old.  They (I'll call them Missy & Red) are happily married, and I am the third in our triad.  I have never experienced this kind of a relationship before, and it has been unbelievable.

I had so many fears over what might happen when we started down this windy path.  Wouldn't someone always feel left out or neglected?  Could I handle the inevitable drama?  Would they quickly get tired of me and need someone new to keep the excitement going?

As it turns out, I have never experienced LESS drama and jealousy in a relationship.  That surprises even me!  I think we sincerely enjoy making and seeing each other happy (in bed and out), that there is simply no place for drama.  There is an overpowering feeling of balance in the triad that I have never felt in a traditional M/F relationship.  There are now two people I can use as a sounding board to check my opinions and judgement with, and even when our opinions initially differ, the consensus is always better than anything I would have arrived at on my own.

This is more than your everyday threesome (if there ever could be such a thing).  The circumstances under which we met, our shared interests and goals, and how we function in our daily lives makes our situation truly unique.  I used to think that three people in a relationship meant each of us would provide 33.3% towards 100% of the whole, but in reality we each contribute 100%. The benefits of a 300% whole are mindboggling...I feel a strength that I have never felt before in a relationship.  It's a beautiful and wondrous thing.

-Chloe