I am lucky. Maybe not the luckiest of all men, but fortune has for the most part smiled upon me. I sleep with two incredible women on a regular basis. *blush* Not every night. Not even most nights. Not as much as any of us three would want. There is an ex-wife, a separated husband, and daughters, all of whom should not know. There are credit problems. There is child support. And other real-life stressors. Simplicity, my life is not.
But the love among us three is qualitatively different from couple-love. It circulates and flows in soul-baring dynamicity. It exposes all your flaws and carries you past lovely and dangerous emotional seascapes. It can give exhilirating confidence, or it can rip at your insecurities. And lying or deception? Impossible. One or the other will detect your BS in a hot moment. This love is not for the faint of heart.
Trifecta love is transforming me. I do not know into what. Maybe transforming is what I am now. I was a planner, now I live in the moment. I used to care about politics, sports, the news of the day. I used to feel more or less secure. I was a smarty-pants know it all, clever boy. Now I live for these women and our future together. I take nothing for granted. I am grateful for my job, for my house, for my kids. I am grateful most of all for Missy and Chloe. I know all of it could be gone in an instant. I know that I know far less than I had thought. I will be with them again soon--a few hours now--and everything else will melt away into the background and I will have bliss again. A time out of time, all too brief before reality crashes down again. One day I hope real life and trifecta life will be not so far apart and the burdens of secrecy will be gone. I am working for that future.
...and I would choose this path every time, though I know not where it leads.
I am coming to you soon, my loves!
Red
But the love among us three is qualitatively different from couple-love. It circulates and flows in soul-baring dynamicity. It exposes all your flaws and carries you past lovely and dangerous emotional seascapes. It can give exhilirating confidence, or it can rip at your insecurities. And lying or deception? Impossible. One or the other will detect your BS in a hot moment. This love is not for the faint of heart.
Trifecta love is transforming me. I do not know into what. Maybe transforming is what I am now. I was a planner, now I live in the moment. I used to care about politics, sports, the news of the day. I used to feel more or less secure. I was a smarty-pants know it all, clever boy. Now I live for these women and our future together. I take nothing for granted. I am grateful for my job, for my house, for my kids. I am grateful most of all for Missy and Chloe. I know all of it could be gone in an instant. I know that I know far less than I had thought. I will be with them again soon--a few hours now--and everything else will melt away into the background and I will have bliss again. A time out of time, all too brief before reality crashes down again. One day I hope real life and trifecta life will be not so far apart and the burdens of secrecy will be gone. I am working for that future.
...and I would choose this path every time, though I know not where it leads.
I am coming to you soon, my loves!
Red
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