I am new, and they are not. They know each other like a hand knows a glove. At times (i.e., when I'm feeling sorry for myself) it's a lonely place to be...but I am discovering that I am in an overwhelmingly unique and covetous position when it comes to insight.
I have learned that many of my concerns over either Red or Missy (their ups and downs, their likes or dislikes, their worries and woes) can usually be quickly and easily explained by the other. I now understand how fortunate I am in that respect.
No one knows ME like that.
I recognize that the two of them are at a distinct disadvantage for that very reason.
Neither of them has any sort of road map or instruction manual to help them understand ME (of course I think I'm the easiest person in the world to understand...which makes it true, right?)! My moods are new, my insights (or lack thereof) are unusual, my ups and downs are unpredictable and probably irrational to them. In that respect, I am a mystery.
I'm not sure what any of it means - I only wanted to make note of it. I will continue to endeavor to be the most transparent and honest, loving and giving, open and devoted partner possible so that I can be an effective third axis of the Trifecta.
Maybe someday I will be known. Maybe someday one of them will be able to explain me to the other...or to MYSELF, for that matter. Please let that happen.
Wow - it had never occurred to me that the "pre-existing condition" could actually be a plus for Chloe. On reflection, I see how the asymmetry cuts the other way: when either Red or Missy is unsure of what's going on in Chloe's head, we guess. Sometimes we guess differently. Sometimes one of us gets annoyed if the other person's speculation seems off, and the only arbiter of who's right - if anyone - is Chloe, who (sadly) often isn't there to perform the reality-check in real time.
ReplyDeleteI like to think that time will cause this to fade: Chloe *will* be known, deeply and fully, and each glove will fit all the hands just as snugly.